It has been awhile since I last posted anything. I don't feel well, I'm tired, and everything is being torn apart piece by piece. When I feel like one thing actually goes the way I want it too, something else happens and makes everything worse than what it was before. At times, I feel like the ground is torn away from my feet, and replaced by water. For most that might not a horrible thing, but for me, it is. I can't swim. So at times, I feel like I'm drowning.
Don't get me wrong, not everything is bad. Things are so much better when I'm at school. I get to see my friends, I have people I can talk to, and I get out the house. Some of my friends say that they understand, I want to believe them, but something inside keeps me from doing so. I don't know why, and it makes me feel like a lousy friends for not trusting them. After everything I went through over the summer, I don't really trust anyone. There are only 4 people that I consider my BEST FRIENDS. I love them, and I would do anything for them. I can tell them anything, and know that they wont judge me, or baby me; when I tell them something's wrong. They either tell me thier opinion or just make me feel better.
Whenever I feel like drowing, they are my life perservers. And for that, I thank them . <3
I hope you count me as a resource for you also. I appreciate how hard you work in class and I too am very glad when you are here at school, that way I know that you are ok.
ReplyDeleteHang in there girl!