Oh.My.Goodness.

Isn't that pretty?! <3 I love it! I think I might get that as a tattoo. Hmm. Well I was gonna blog about what we were really suppose to blog about, but now I forgot where it is... xD!
I would ask Kara, but I kinda don't wanna be a botherr. :|
So. This lovely lady named Sam, gave be something this morning. :D:D
It's Escape The Fate's newest CD. <3<3<3 Whoo! She's soo ah.maz.ingg.
Also, my friend Jackie, gave me a YooHoo. I haven't had one of those since I was in Elm. school. I'm excited to drink it! I hope it's yummy, nummy! :P~
Another thing is, that I'm leaving early today! At 11:30. Although, my sister is coming with us, and I miss lunch. and I think I'm gonna  miss the Edge test in Mr. Yunker's class... And lunch today is oober good. It's my all time favourite school lunch.  D:!
Holy shi~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!
---That is true, Kara, E.J. and I had to get up in front of a computer on web cam, and people in the class romm, (some from the other class) and I don't really get along with them. It was extremely awkward and I tried to talk. I really did, but my voice refused to get any volume and so I stood there and looked like and idiot. Dx! It was horribleeeee.
Kara was like, BEYOND nervous, but she did a splendid job. :3 I ish proud of herrrr.<3 Also yesterday, I got meh prom pictures. :D They're so cuteeee. :P~

I'm Rollin' With The Dead.

Look at my team and me with mustaches and beards. We're so hot we can melt iceeee. xD

I just finished editing this picture not too long ago to use as our team photo. Our teacher took a photo of us and was using it, but she always tell us not to use photos that you could tell who it is. (Cause there are.. you know... preditors. :O)  But it's okay, cause we fixed it. Woot Woot!!! :D:D:D

Today I have edited our team page, fixed this b-e-a-u-tiful picture, and Kara and E.J. have looked ALL PERIOD for a gosh forsaken code to connect all our scenes together. (With no luck as of yet. Still. And with only 23 minutes left...) Have faith. <3

Hmmm. I really hope we can find code. If we do, then we're set!

Ohhhh myyyyy goooodnessss. I'm still tired. Stupid sleep. I'm just gonna stay up alllllll weekend. (Well, try too.) Then I can honestly say that I'm Rollin' With The Dead.

By the way. That is a TERIFFIC Song. It's by Go Periscope.

And it's called: Rollin' With The Dead.

(Now there's only like 15 minutes left of class. Still no code. )

:(

The world may never know...

We only have a WEEK till we need to have our game demo done. And we still CANNOT find a code to connect all of our scenes and such together...

There's still a good bit that we have to do, and today I'm just have trouble concentrating. I feel so tired, but I sleep all the time. Waking up in the middle of the night probably isn't helping any, either. It's not my fault though. Saturday after prom I stayed up till 4:40 ish, got up at 9 ish, then took a four hour nap later Sunday. Then I come home go to bed at 2:15 and couldn't get up for school (plus I was sick.). SO I slept till 12. Then I go to bed at like 10:30 then get up at 6:15 and go home and nap, then go back to bed at 11:00. That's a lot of sleep. but I always wake up at sometime in the middle of the night, and it takes me awhile to back ot sleep. I tell my parents all the time that I think that I have a sleeping disorder. But they don't believe me.

Oh, well. 

Now, the game. We have a ton of scenes for our game, but we still can't find a code. We've looked at other games, googles it, and everything. NOT. A. DA-...DARN. THING! Golly. I don't know what we are gonna do.

                                                                                                                          Shoot me now.

Bloggin' for the whole team:D!!!!

I'm so special I get to blog for my whole team! YAY!! 

We've been kinda pre-occupied with the game we're making. All of us have contributed alot. (Kara, E.J., & me.) --It's really colddd.--  We have made multiple scenes each, and posted everything we have to the wiki page. Now all we have to do is reaarnge our scenes and find the right hit test code, and then we're set. Buttttt, we can't, or E.J. rather, can't find the right hit code. 

We have to make our game educational, but we can't unless we get that code.  Our scenes with the educational facts in them, need that hit test code, but since we don't have it I don't know what we're gonna do.   D:  

I can never get ahead...

The Game.The Game.The Game.The Game.The Game.

This sucks. This whole week has sucked. Silly me thought that yesterday and today would have been great, cause my JROTC class took a field trip. I got to see all my friends, and learn about the ecosystems, plants, and animals. And today, I'm suppose to stay the night with my friends. But NOOOO.  Something always comes up to ruin everything. I did have a good time yesterday, until someone had to be all down in the dumps and make everyone feel awkaward.  Then I woke up late this morning, forgot my clothes and my bus pass, to go to her house. Even though, that kid ruined my day yesterday, in and out of school, isn't here; he still made today horrible. My best friend's not here. Which just makes everything 100 times worse. I just wanna go home and lay in bed forever. I wish I could and pass the rest of my senior year, and not leave my bed.
Sorry for being a droopy daisey:(.
I do believe, it's just stress.
Everything finally catching up to me. It's just makes me all mad and sad. All mooshed together at the same time. It's horribleeee. 
On the brightside, I do know things will get better in a few days. 
I am going to graduate, that's a must. (I know I will unless the harassing teach I have fails me, like he said he was going. too.) 
My friends will still be here for me tomorrow.
The same goes for my family.
Now all I want is some icecream, and a little baby Pug. <3 They're soooo cute. :3 

Help me, Help me; You know me better than I know myself.

The past past few days for me, have been horrible. There's just a bunch of shiz that keeps going on. I've been getting picked on in one of my classes. It's been going on all year, but it was just every once in awhile. Now, it's become more constant.
I've never been picked on before, and I didn't know how to handle it. Some of the things that were said, hurt me, a lot. And the person saying these things to me, has no right. I finally broke down the other night, and told my parents what was going on. I cried so much, I got a migraine. 
My parents told me that they were going to make an appointment with our principal and that person.  That didn't make me feel any better, cause I feel like it's just going to make things worse in that class.  I think what makes this situation worse, is that he told me it would effect my grade. I have that class two times everyother day. If he fails me, my gpa will go down, and I'm afraid that I won't get into a good college.  
After I told my parents, one of my friends talked to me on Facebook. He told me that all this will make me more mature, and it's a part of growing up. He said later on he'll get what coming to him, it's karma. Then he told me if the meeting doesn't have any effect on things, then we'll all dress up as ninja and scare the crap out of him.
He's few years older than me, and I feel like he knows what he's talking about. I felt a whole lot better talking to him. If it wasn't for him, I'd probably still be all sad and in bed.  Thank you. <3


*Woot!* ~We're listening to 80's music!~ 

What can I say to you, that you haven't already heard?

Yesterdaywas an Ah.Maz.Ingg day. It was all warm and sunny outside, but today it's not. It is really cold, and it's snowing. AGAIN. I just cannot grasp the concept of how it goes from being super warm, to freezing within less than 24 hours. It just shouldn't be possible...

Today, thus far, I have purchased prom tickets for me and my boyfriend, I have uploaded my files to the wiki page, I linked them to our team page, and I'm blogging. (Which is my favourite thing to dooo, of course.) I hope that later on in the day, the snow goes away :D.

--Angry Rampage-- I watched Tuck Everlasting last night, for the first time. It was a really good movie, until it ended. >:/

The ending really made me upset. I think that it should of had a happy ending, but noooooo. She had to just go and NOT  drink from the fountain. Why? Who knows. She had to of been crazy to not want too. I mean, she could have lived forever with the one person in the world that will love her "forever." Why give that up?

Well, to be honest I probably wouldn't drink from it either. I mean if you did, you would stay the same while everyone you know and love would die in front of you. But since it was a movie, I'm still a little upset about that.

E.J. is BEASTTT at this whole game making thing. I don't know what our team would do without him, cause I know that I would mess it up. >.< Lol. You think I'm kidding, but I'm not. :p

I'm tired today, just a little. Normally I'm a WHOLE lot more tired than this, so I shouldn't be complaining. I think it's this wheather though. It's depressing. 

:( 

 

We're not unreasonable, I mean it's not like we're gonna eat your eyes....

Dearest, you are never gonna guess what my team and I just got finished with the other day. C'mon, take a guess...

What was that??! Did you say 'PAPER PROTO-TYPE?' If you did, you won absolutley nothing, except a computer generated heart. [[as shown here: <3]] Cute, huh? :)

We recorded it just the other day, and I posted it up on our team page earlier. Neither Kara or E.J. are here, so I'm all by myself. Well not allllll by myself. I mean I have Jordan and Gary and everyone elseeee. I just mean I'm the only one here, that's in my team/group.

Anywaysss, what I was saying, is that I'm pretty happy with the paper proto-type. It may be a little sloppy, but I like it. The sloppy-ness can alway be improved, cause there is always room for improvement. I also think that when we start to actually make our game, alot of the ideas are gonna change...

Flash, my mini game. This is enough to drive you crazyyy.

So, as you may or may not know, my classmates and I have been working on this bunny mini game project thinggg in FLASH. (There is a reason flash is in caps...) It took us ForFreakingEverrr to get what we got done. So if your asking me if it was hard, I need to know if you want me to lie to you or not. Hmmm? Well, I'll just be completely honest with you, and tell you that it was the most aggravating, brainsucking, difficult, and some other words I can't even think of, thing I ever attempted to do. Bleh Bleh Bleh.

Was there any good parts about making this game? Ha! Maybe after me being all angry at the computer and flash for not working right, there might have been a few things that went right. I think that my favourite part was when we added the drag & drop code to our bunny. It was the only thing that didn't give me any hassle. (: And that I like ALOT.  So, at that I thank you, Oh Mighty Drag & Drop Code!!! <3 <3 <3 <3

Was there any bad parts to making this mini game, you ask? YES, yup, yeah, yep, mhhm, yesh, I ran out of words that stand for yes.....

The worst part about me making this game is that I pretty much suck at flash. I really don't the fact that my scoring, scored with out touching anything. :(( Grrrrz. And I have no idea to fix it. On the brightside, I guess, is you would have a super high score. No matter what(:! Lol.

Thumbelina: 'I wish I had wings.'
Prince Cornelius: 'Maybe someday you will.'

<3 Best movie everrr<3 

Well, Well, Well...

Social issues in today's society, where to begin. It'd help if I payed more attention. Wow. There's soooooo many to chose from. It's crazy how many problems there are.

I googled up a site that has MANY issues of today.

---> http://www.buzzle.com/articles/social-issues-in-todays-society.html <---

If I had to pick just one to talk about, I'm not sure which one I'd pick. The ones I'm most concerned about aren't really "school appropriate." I wont go into details, but I think Homosexuality, suicide (teen or any other kind), drug abuse, alcoholism, animal rights, abortion, HIV/AIDS, and human rights are the most important ones to me. 

I think that these issues are most important to be talked about, 'cause to me they are the most serious. They effect everyone. I'll post some links you can go to about each one. You don't have to read if you think it's going to offend you in any way. And if it does, I am sorry.

Homosexuality- 'Some early civilizations, such as those of ancient Greece and Rome, often accepted homosexual behavior but, in general, did not make a distinction between homosexuality and heterosexuality as orientations. Homosexual and heterosexual responses were considered to both be "natural" feelings that manifest to a greater or lesser degree in different individuals.'   If you want to read more, here's the site. --->
http://www.buzzle.com/editorials/7-16-2004-56674.asp

Suicide- I shouldn't really have to explain. Everyone should know what suicide is. Here is information on it and prevention. ---->
http://www.teachervision.fen.com/education-and-social-issues/mental-health/57088.html

Drug Abuse- Well, here's one that gets a little tough. I'm sure we all know some one in out past or present that has done drugs. I know, I know some people that I use to be close too that do drugs. I don't really talk to them anymore, cause I got tired of worrying about them, and all the pills and crap the were doing.  ((I have an opinion of this, but this isn't the place for me to state it. ))

This is a site that tells you about the affects of drug abuse are and hoe to prevent drug abuse. --->  
http://www.buzzle.com/articles/drug-abuse-prevention.html

Alcoholism- I guess in a way, this could be considered a 'drug', cause too much of it hurts your body. ((I also have an opinion on this, that I can't state on here...)) Too much, in daily doses is REALLLYYYY bad. --->
http://www.buzzle.com/articles/how-much-alcohol-is-too-much.html

Animal Rights- I associate this with animal cruelty. That is wrong. It's inconceivable how a human being with a soul could hurt an animal. I'm not a crazy vegetarian hippy, yelling "KILLING ANIMALS IS WRONG!" type of person. I don't see the  harm in killing an animal (in season) for food. What I do consider wrong is animal testing and abuse. (like not feeding them or beating them or fighting them.)

Here are some animal right facts. ---->
 http://www.buzzle.com/articles/animal-rights-facts.html

Abortion- I feel it's probably going to be in  my best interest not to post a site on this one. I will say, I think it's wrong and should only be available to rape victims...

HIV/AIDS- This should be talked about. There should be precautions taken. People need to know that they aren't excluded from it if they are 'straight'. Even if most cases of HIV/AID are same-sex couples.

This has facts on the issue, along with other site you can go to if you want more. ---->
http://www.buzzle.com/articles/hiv-aids/

Human Rights- When I see this, the first things that come to mind: Human Trafficking, the rights that every one have, and how they are abused sometimes.

----> http://www.buzzle.com/articles/list-of-human-rights-issues.html

Like I said before, if any of these are offensive in any way I'm sorry. Post me calm comment about  which one it as and why, I'll probably take it down. Just please, don't be rude. (: 

We're getting close, to something better left unknown.

Recently, I've been so happy. I feel like things are going to get better soon, hopefully. I really hope they do. If they do, then everything will be perfect, well my definition of perfect. I'll have someone who cares about me, and the fighting will stop, I'll be able to go to my friends' houses more often, and everyone will just be better off.

I'm kinda excited. I'm hoping for the best. I honestly think that this will be something worth looking forward too; all the happy times that are to come. (:  If not then, this will be something for me, to learn from.

I really, hope that this works. I want it too soooooo badddd. He's amazing, and being able to stay at home, without having to worry all the time will be great, too.

Better late then never, right love?

 Okayy, so this should have been posted alllllll the way back in the beginning of November. Silly me, never got around to doing it.

Below, are some links that I feel are necessary in mine and Kara's game development. They are very resourceful.

This one is a map of the United States. We are going to use it as a reference to our map in the game(:

http://www.ginandtacos.com/forums/united-states-map.jpg

 This nest link has poverty levels in the Unites States.

http://www.statemaster.com/graph/eco_per_bel_pov_lev-economy-percent-below-poverty-level

This is the only other link that I have, It talks about poverty.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Poverty

These are really cool! I kinda want one, don't you?

It's been a while darling, I've misssed you.

It has been awhile since I last posted anything. I don't feel well, I'm tired, and everything is being torn apart piece by piece. When I feel like one thing actually goes the way I want it too, something else happens and makes everything worse than what it was before. At times, I feel like the ground is torn away from my feet, and replaced by water.  For most that might not a horrible thing, but for me, it is. I can't swim.  So at times, I feel like I'm drowning.

Don't get me wrong, not everything is bad. Things are so much better when I'm at school. I get to see my friends, I have people I can talk to, and I get out the house. Some of my friends say that they understand, I want to believe them, but something inside keeps me from doing so. I don't know why, and it makes me feel like a lousy friends for not trusting them. After everything I went through over the summer, I don't really trust anyone. There are only 4 people that I consider my BEST FRIENDS. I love them, and I would do anything for them. I can tell them anything, and know that they wont judge me, or baby me; when I tell them something's wrong. They either tell me thier opinion or just make me feel better.

Whenever I feel like drowing, they are my life perservers. And for that, I thank them . <3